This isn't how it was supposed to happen.

You got gold.

But do you feel golden?

The pain that you just went through and have been going through for years was supposed to go away once you got first, wasn't it?

So why didn't it?

Your coach is happy with your results but is automatically telling you what you can do better for next time.

But there won't be a next time, will there?

The light at the end of the tunnel seems to shift. To disappear. It was never really there.